Starting

This journey has been a long time coming. A stripping down of sorts. A losing of parts and pieces that I've picked up along the way that I was never meant to carry. A decluttering of body, mind, spirit, and yes, physical space too. An un-becoming of who I never was.

This blog is my third attempt. I opened a blog 2008 that I called Un-dragoning, after the un-dragoning of Eustace in the book The Voyage of the Dawn Treader by C.S. Lewis. I added quotes from the book and nothing else. Then I started a blog in 2014 called Coming Back into the Sun. I wrote two drafts that I never published. I wasn't ready. I hadn't been through the soul darkness needed to produce fruit. Like a seed in the depths of the soil, I needed time and nourishment before I could begin to break out of the ground.

I've been trying, trying to get back to ...something, someone that seems like me... to someone that would like the world again. I needed time in the soil, in the dark, before anything could sprout.

Somewhere along  the way I became unbecoming in body, mind, spirit, and yes, physical space too and now my focus is on un-becoming that person so I can live an intentional life, so I can live up to what God intended me to be.

It's time for a reemerging, a rebirth, a realizing that enough of the foundation has finally been laid in my soul to start an actual transformation. To break ground. To sprout. So even though I essentially started years ago in the dark recesses of my soul, I'm really starting now. Here's to breaking out of the darkness and into the light.

"They say the best men are born out of their faults and that they often improve later on, more than if they'd never done anything wrong." From A Man Called Ove by Fredrik Backman